My Regrets At The Age Of 16

Living day to day life, you make a lot of mistakes, however, some of these mistakes you have done you then realise that you actually regret it. Everyone has regrets, but only some people are willing to share it. Will you share your biggest regrets? Leave a comment about your biggest regret?

I regret doing so many different things, some are a big deal and some are small, some have a huge impact on other people and some have a HUGE impact on myself. Sharing my personal regrets with my readers is something I've wanted to do for a while now, not just because it's content for you to read, for the fact it will make me feel better and put the past behind me. In this post I will share 5 of my biggest regrets (not in any particular order), are you ready?

Regret 1 - When I was at a boot fair/yard sale when I was younger, I had a creative mindset, therefore, anything that was along the lines of stationary I had too buy it. For example, my parents used to take us out every now and again for a treat and wherever it was always had a shop, now, normal people would buy souvenirs, like my step brother, he bought nice expensive things... I would always buy a pencil or a rubber and maybe a pad for the journey home. It's always been something at a great interest too me. Back to the story, I saw a makeup box, it sounds a bit weird for a boy to have an interest in a makeup box but this box was somehow 'special too me'. 

I kept going back and walking past this stall, just admiring the contagious beauty of this dull and gloomy brown box. I tried persuading my all morning hoping, praying that she'd give me some money for it (I was only young at the time, so I wasn't making my own money); it took a whole before she gave in and gave me a fresh, crisp five pound note. The emotional tension that was running through my head knowing I could get this wonderful and mystical box was unreal. I marched myself to the lady who was selling the box and she told me that it was magical, obviously straight away I threw her the money and took my new 'magic box' (not being rude intentionally). 

Why do I regret this? I regret this because, not only was this 100% un-magical, my mum had told me not to waste my money on something I didn't need. You didn't guess did you? I thought you knew my mum didn't know? Well, she found out sooner than I expected, this box was actually the death of me! I got shouted at and as I was young I spoke back to my mum (which wasn't the best thing to do mind you!), this then got me grounded for a while. 

On the bright side, I had a lot of fun playing with it, acting that it was actually magical and gave me magic powers and eternal life. It also stored my stationary well and was my arts and crafts box for two or so.

Regret 2 - Approximately 100,000 pass away in the UK everyday caused by smoking. Smoking wasn't something I planned on doing when I was younger and growing up around smokers therefore I was inhaling second hand smoke, maybe that was the kick start? I don't know. I knew the basics of what now bad smoking was for me and the aftermaths/effects it had on me. This didn't stop me.

It all started when I was 11, yes it's a young age but I just wanted to try it. When my parents weren't in the room I crept into my dads tobacco pouch and 'pinched' a small bundle of tobacco and obviously a rolling paper. When I got home from school I rolled a 'cigarette', terribly may i just add. After searching for a lighter, it came to my best of interest that I didn't have one. I'm was quite an intelligent and bright student for an eleven year old so I knew how to start a fire - I chose the cooker and it didn't go well at all, I got two drags from the cigarette and tobacco and cigarette ash everywhere! The funny thing is, normal people cough their guts up when they smoke for the first time, I was eleven and I didn't cough once; maybe this is where it started.

I tried to clear everything up before my parents got home, however, as clumsy as I was I didn't do everything. The first thing my mum did when she came through the door was say "it smells of smoke in here", I started to panic and stutter replying with "I don't know mum", (worst lie in the book for children.) She knew straight away I was smoking, she walked straight to the cooker and saw tobacco, this was when hell was set free.  Again I was grounded for six weeks. I then stopped smoking for at least a year.

When I was in secondary school, smoking was the big thing at break and lunch time so I was sent a type of peer pressure. I smoked my mums cigarettes at the time and bought cigarettes for 50p from the boys at school. There were numerous amounts of people getting caught and one day the same thing happened to me, my parents were called and I was grounded again. After getting caught 5 times in total my parents took me and my sister too Spain for a weeks holiday. I eventually told my mum in the hotel room that I smoked and if she had a problem, then there was nothing she could do about it (God, I'm so stubborn).

She agreed and said that's fine, she knew I smoked and that she'd rather have her buy me fags then me steal her cigarettes. 

I have tried numerous times to stop smoking. I tried to stop with the chewing gum you can get with nicotine in it, however, that didn't work and nor did the  new 'E-Cigarette'. I suppose quitting smoking is a goal I would like to achieve . I don't smoke much, but when I'm around my friends I can smoke a whole pack of 20 in 12 hours. Normally I smoke around 10-15 a day. I don't really get time as I work all the time.

Regret 3 - I definitely regret quitting YouTube, obviously I've started again but about 3-4 years ago I had a beautifully active channel, a fair amount of subscribers and a decent number of overall views. I stopped it because I didn't have time and art wasn't really something I had an interest anymore. 

After finishing school and getting into a deep relationship I found myself struggling to think about my hobbies, my time was devoted to more of life responsibilities and working. For my 16th birthday I got a capture card and started recording game play for YouTube, again after a short while I lost interest. As art has always been my passion, I started college with the ambition to play a large role in the Information Technology Industry.
Realising I had pretty strong skills in 3 of the biggest roles, I bought Photoshop, a game design program and Dreamweaver, from there I started a YouTube channel titled PxlarHD and started uploading speed art. To this channel I'd like to upload web, graphic and game design time lapses and tutorials. I regret that I don't upload as much as I want too but maybe looking at an upload schedule when I hit a milestone may be accurate in my position.